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08 July 2009 @ 12:49 am

Go to http://quotationspage.com/random.php3 and browse the random quotes until you find five that you think reflect who you are or what you believe.

"All of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon - instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today." - Dale Carnegie

I'm not too happy to say that one's me, but it is. I'm working on it. I'm working really hard to stop talking about living life, and start fucking DOING IT.

"My favorite thing is to go where I've never been." - Diane Arbus

"Maturity is a bitter disappointment for which no remedy exists, unless laughter can be said to remedy anything." - Kurt Vonnegut

And indeed it can. <3 I hate being mature/responsible some days. Precisely why some days, I don't bother. =P And why I love having idiotic friends like the dweeb I took this from, and the other dweeb who will probably take it from me just because two of her friends did. (You know who you are. And you know you want to.)

"Humankind cannot stand very much reality." - T. S. Eliot

As proven by all the people who get pissy when provn wrong. =P I didn't even notice it at first, but I smiled big when I realized this quote was T. S. Eliot. LOVE HIM.

And finally, because you know I love politics...

"Nothing can so alienate a voter from the political system as backing a winning candidate." - Mark B. Cohen

For some reason, that really does seem to be true. =/ wth.

I now return you to your regularly scheduled programming. And I return myself to sitting on my lazy arse. Kinda like I'm doing right now. Huh. Go figure.

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06 July 2009 @ 01:40 am

I kind of hate myself tonight.

"We could just go to a fucking casino and blow money, stay in a hotel and stay up late watching old movies and playing truth or dare."

Most appealing offer I've gotten all week.

Mind you, the offer came at 12:30am. Which made it that much better. Who wouldn't want to? How often do I actually do things on a whim in the middle of the night just because it struck my fancy?

To hell with it, I thought. Let's go. Let's do something stupid, for once. Fuck financial resonsibility, fuck adequate sleep, fuck work--

Work. I missed FOUR HOURS last week that I didn't make up! I can't afford to miss work!

"Sorry," I reply. "If I hadn't missed hours last week, I would in a heartbeat. Maybe we can do it another time."

Another time. Where's the spontaneity in planning ahead?!

"We're incapable of spontaneity," my friend says to me. I think, that can't be right.

"We're not," I answer defiantly. "We're just careful about it."

Fuck. We are, I realize.

I hate this. I can't, for one lousy night, foresake responsibility in the name of going out and having a good time. I keep saying that I want to step out of my own skin. For once, just stop planning! For once, let some of the hectic things in life be something that I want, but DIDN'T see coming! Things I'm not prepared for!

I don't want to be prepared anymore.

And yet, one night--just ONE NIGHT--I'm not willing to take a write-up for missing hours so that I can finally start living, or at least spend that one night living, the way I keep saying I want to.

I really am incapable of spontaneity.

This is probably the most depressing epiphany I've ever had.

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24 June 2009 @ 01:12 am

Writer's Block: When I Was Young

What do you miss most about being a kid?

Submitted By daeinleyof

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Believing in dragons and fairies.

"Knowing" that I'd have everything I wanted in life, and that the people I loved would be best friends forever.

Not being focused on things that shouldn't matter, like money.

Not having a strong sense of time or caring for its importance.

Being spontaneous.

Dreaming big.

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21 June 2009 @ 11:06 pm

Good news, bad news, and HOLY SHIT KATIE + CAMERA.

So I almost died today. But I got a cool new...well, you'll see.

( long story + picture )

I couldn't make it bigger without it being all pixely, sorry. But anyway, ignore the messy room, the messy hair, and the atrocious sunburn (I actually kinda wish this picture showed that BETTER actually but I couldn't get the right lighting for that.) THIS IS WHAT MY NEW SKIRT LOOKS LIKE PEOPLE. LOVE IT. (It's brown, by the way. It probably looks black but it's brown.) My camera has low quality. Again, my apologies.

( EDIT: The bathroom has better lighting. I can show you my sunburn after all. )

I think it looks even more red in person, actually. I got it from the auto show, "Return to the 50's" or whatever it was called, at the state fairgrounds yesterday. Three or more hours wandering around, and silly me, I forgot sunblock. Needless to say...OUCH.

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18 June 2009 @ 02:32 am

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This is what happens when you get me, Sandy, and Sarah in the same room.

...Erm, the same IM window. =/

I felt the need to immortalize it. Quite possibly the most pointless post I've made thus far, and I'm probably the only one who thinks it's funny, but there we are.

EDIT: The cut is supposed to say, "If you like Star Trek and that damn "I'm On A Boat" song, continue." But it didn't put that on there. So, if you like Star Trek and that damn "I'm On A Boat" song, continue.

'NOTHER EDIT: For some odd reason the damn italics and shit are all fucked up. I'll fix it later when I'm feeling less lazy. It's 2:30 am, gimme a break. =/

( If you like Star Trek and that damn )

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14 June 2009 @ 12:04 am

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I've come to realise, I really love to gamble. Too bad I just have terrible luck.

I miss the good ol' days when Pluto was a planet.

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08 June 2009 @ 11:09 am

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I do not want to go to work today. It's going to be my first five-day week in three weeks and I DO NOT WANT.

I'll be e-mailing my honors application essay as soon as I put the finishing touches on it (i.e. refining it oh so slightly and doing the damn citations page). Yay!

I still can't seem to get ahold of Brookwood Estates. I'm starting to think they just don't want to talk to me. I want to know if they've had a chance to review my application.

I really, really ought to do something productive with my time before work. There's still an hour before I have to leave and I have a long list of shit that needs to be done. But I'm not doing it.

I need a good icon for my "blehhhhhhh" moods. =/

I came here to post one sentence. One that was completely irrelevant, but I felt like posting it. And now, for the life of me, I can't remember what that one sentence might have been.

I think I'm going to go email my honors essay now.

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08 June 2009 @ 01:46 am

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RULES:
✗ Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper at their LiveJournal.
✗ Explain in five sentences why you're using that wallpaper!
✗ Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on.

( pretty picture. )
My apologies that it's kinda pixel-y. >.< I don't know how to make it bigger without making it like that. *pout* I fail. My five sentences on why...

1. Do I really need five sentences?
2. I mean LOOK AT THAT.
3. GOOD LORD, YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION IS IRRELEVANT.
4. I would so do him.
5. Such a pleasant thing to open my computer to every day...*siiiiigh*

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07 June 2009 @ 11:06 pm

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Re: Icon--Told you I'm a TNG fan.

So it turns out I'm a little rusty at this whole essay-writing business.

I'm finally getting my ass in gear for the essay I have to write to formally apply to the SCSU Honors program, and it's coming along a lot more slowly than I had imagined. I had figured it would take me an hour, tops. Instead, I've been working on it off and on for about three hours, and I've only got it about 3/4 of the way finished! I'm having way too much difficulty putting my thoughts into words. I know what I want to say, but for some reason I just can't figure out how to say it!

This usually doesn't happen. Normally essays flow pretty well for me. I must just be painfully out of practice.

For the most part, though, I've finished the essay. I just need to refine how I've worded a couple paragraphs, and do some basic proofreading, and then I think it'll be ready.

Siiiiigh. This is frustrating.

Current Location: My room

Current Mood:

frustrated

Current Music: None

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07 June 2009 @ 02:57 am

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I just saw Star Trek in theatre for the THIRD TIME.

I'm pretty sure this is going to be the last time.

But Sarah (IFUGGINLOVEYOUWOMAN) bought me a paid account for an early birthday present and I got lots of new icons, and good god the one in this icon is one of my favourite scenes. (I NEED A GOOD "OUT OF THE CHAIR" ICON, IF YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT AND HAVE ONE PLEASE CAN I HAVE IT?!) I need a "wictor wictor" and "Are you outta your Vulcan mind?!" one, too...

Anyway, yeah, I'm trying hard NOT to go Star Trek happy but...well...I kinda am. Yes, I'm a nerd.

I also got to see Up!, and it was ADORABLE. And it made me want another dog. Scary.

I think I've officially developed that strange thing people have called, "a life." It's the most bizarre thing, to actually have plans on weekends, to actually be going out and doing things. It's got me to the point where I'm seriously considering GOING ON A DATE. (Not sure who with yet, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.) I've gone bowling three times already this year, which is more than I've done in the three years priorto that. I've seen a movie probably about eight times in theatres this year, which is more than I've done in about the five years prior to this combined. And you know what? I LIKE IT.

And just when I'm finally getting into having a life, I'm gonna have to move. =/ Well, shit.

( Sleep-deprived ramblings bearing tidings of good news. For me, at least. )

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02 June 2009 @ 10:17 pm

Goals for the month of May, revisited

May is now over, obviously. And so it's that time where I revisit my goals, and tell you all how I did!

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I did a lot better on work/financial goals...which just reiterates what I already know: That I don't spend enough time doing things for me, and work and money have all but taken over what little remains of my personal life. =/ Something to keep in mind.

I have awesome news from my trip to St. Cloud yesterday too, but as I am limited on computer time, that will have to wait for another day!

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30 May 2009 @ 10:42 pm

I am a nerd, and I am proud.

SO. I just returned from watching the new Star Trek movie.

For the second time.

And now my darlings and I are plotting crackfic ST/LOTR crossover. Most. Bizarre. Crossover. EVAH. (Thus why it will be crackfic.)

I NEVER write fanfic, so I don't know how this is going to work or whether it will actually get written.

BUT I AM OFFICIALLY A STAR TREK FANGIRL.

I haven't fangirled over anything--ANYTHING--since I was a pre-teen obsessed with Harry Potter, of all things. How pitiful is this?! Curse you Sandy and Sarah! (Sandarah, if you will.)

If and when my laptop comes back. I am going to have to upload a wonderful .gif of James T. Kirk. Courtesey of Sandy who has it courtesey of Sarah. (Again, curse you Sandarah!)

A few things I noticed:

-If this is set in the future where they have fancy-pants technology for space travel and their police officers are robots on hovercrafts, don't you think they'd have more advanced vehicles than just today's cars and motorcycles?

-James Kirk gets strangled frequently, and ends up hanging from ledges more frequently.

-Spock looks funny when he raises his eyebrow.

-Accents. I luff them. "Wictor Wictor..." "Ewacuation!" And of COURSE, Scotty. <3!!!!

-As Sandy points out, as Spock is vigorously choking Kirk...Why does nobody bother to stop him? They all just stand there like O NOEZ! SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING! MAYBE! IF YOU WANT! IF NOTHING BETTER IS ON TV!!!

And finally: I can't wait until this yet-unwritten fanfic introduces Karl Urban meets himself. Eomer meets Bones. "Hm. Have I met you before? You seem oddly familiar..."

P.S.: Does anyone know where I can find good Star Trek icons from the new movie? Particularly anything involving Kirk, Spock, Bones, Scotty, or that cute little alien thing that hangs around with Scotty?

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25 May 2009 @ 12:21 am

Writer's Block: Don't Call It a Comeback

The French term "l'esprit de l'escalier," which translates literally as "the wit of the staircase," refers to those perfect, clever comebacks that you only think of after the fact. What's the best came-too-late comeback you've ever had?

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Leave it to me to remember to answer this THE NEXT DAY. But I couldn't think of any when I had meant to answer it...

At work recently, I got an extra five minute break for doing well ('cause our managers are cool like that). I was wandering around aimlessly and ran into another one of my coworkers, who asked what I was doing off the phone. I answered, "Well, I won a five minute break...now I'm just wandering around aimlessly because I have nothing to do for five minutes." He smirked and said, "I've got something you can do for five minutes." I just laughed and said, "Yeah, I'm sure you do."

It wasn't until later I realised what I SHOULD have said was, "If five minutes is all it takes, honey, you've got your own set of problems."

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24 May 2009 @ 09:11 pm

Finally, she goes near a camera!!!

Okay, so I did this meme previously:

Name up to three aspects of my life you want me to photograph. They can be specific (my bedroom), or not so specific (something red).

For starters, Clancy asked me to post a picture of my favourite outfit...WITH ME IN IT. dun dun dun!!!

( I TOUCHED A CAMERA. This is a monumental occasion, people. )

</div>Okay, and if anybody else wants me to continue the meme, let me know. =) I found I rather like cameras. *le shock*

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13 May 2009 @ 10:11 am

HAI GUYZ!

GUYS GUYS GUYS. GUESS WHAT. I BOUGHT A CAR YESTERDAY.

My first car!

A 2002 Dodge Neon, kinda maroon-ish...very pretteh. And it runs so niiiiiiice. XD Only 39,000 miles! For under $4k! Mind you, that's because it's been in an accident. But there's nothing wrong with it, they fixed it up really well.

This is gonna be an epic few months for me. I bought a car yesterday, I'm registering for college classes in a couple weeks, I'm moving a few weeks beyond that (first weekend in August I believe), and classes start August 24. I'M SO EXCITEEEEEEEED.

Life is gonna get really fuggin' hectic pretty soon.

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03 May 2009 @ 10:31 pm

I stole all this from ainu_laire

( I got bored. )
So anyway...I managed to stay off the computer all day today (except to check email this morning) until about 10:00 this evening. I call that an accomplishment.

The weather was beautiful today. I felt so calm and serene, and at the same time energetic. And for once I felt like maybe, just maybe, the world as it is might be enough for me, as long as I can have all of it.

Looking forward to the work week, oddly enough. Found a car I might be buying. Thursday I'm heading up to SCSU. Finding out soon whether or not I'm getting a raise (I really hope I am).

I think I'm going to wander off and alternate between reading and playing Sudoku. ^.^ The Hobbits will be meeting "Strider" pretty soon...

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02 May 2009 @ 07:35 pm

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Gah. Hanging out with my parents' friends isn't quite as enjoyable as I'd thought. They're all sitting around talking about how Obama's election was the last Presidential election this country will ever have, and how we're going to be a Socialist country with a dictatorship now. They're dead fucking serious.

I spend EIGHT. HOURS. A DAY. Every day. Talking to people making stupid comments showing blatant ignorance to the entire political process. I'm so sick of hearing the phrases "Messiah President," "B. Hussein Obama" (because CLEARLY he chose his own name modeled after Saddam!), and just the general rants about how Democrat = Socialist. For fuck's sake, I am neither Republican nor Democrat, and I'm sick of hearing that comparison. Do people not realise that it would be basically impossible for Obama to become a dictator? Apparently not. That would require actually KNOWING WHAT THE HELL YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT.

Eight to nine hours a day I listen to this shit, and now I come home and guess what I get to hear about while I'm trying to relax and enjoy a Saturday evening!

To top it off, my dad is telling his friends how liberal I am and how I want Al Franken to win and blah blah blah. I have considered myself Independent for as long as I can remember because y'know what? I am capable of THINKING FOR MYSELF and not buying into the propaganda and hype that 90% of the people I have to talk to base their entire views on. And for the record, I voted for DEAN BARKLEY because I actually RESEARCH candidates before voting, unlike the rest of this country seems to. And I would greatly appreciate my family not being so goddamned presumptuous and elitist over politics because I'm the only one of the lot who's actually done any studying on the matter whatsoever.

Never has this icon been more appropriate.

I'm going to go back downstairs in a few minutes after I've had time to calm down and if the subject comes up again, I can guarantee I will not waste a second to tell them all what aboslute morons they are in this particular regard.

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02 May 2009 @ 06:35 pm

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I feel good. Really good. Even t hough my dog pissed me off on the walk with his total inability to listen despite having been trained rather well a year ago.

I just got back from taking my dog on a long walk. I had some time to read today, I've spent some time with my parents, I saw a friend I hadn't seen in a long time and met her (almost six month old by now!) baby boy for the first time, I hung out with mah BFF, and soon I'll be socializing (sort of) with my parents and their friends (who are always a hoot to hang out with).

I've decided to make a goal list for May--much like what my friend does--and I WAS just going to write this down in my paper journal but I figure if some other people know about my goals I'll be more likely to follow them. SO.

GOALS FOR THE MONTH OF MAY

Work Goals
   1. Work an extra hour at least once a week
   2. Work at least one weekend shift
   3. Maintain 85% client goals, $45 revenue, and 22 CPH
   4. Actually get the monthly bonus for the first time in three months!

Financial Goals
   1. Buy a car
   2. Fill out FAFSA (finally)
   3. No NSF fees!/keep a closer eye on checking account

Personal Goals
   1. Take Hunter for a walk once a week
   2. Journal at least twice a week
   3. Read at least three times a week
   4. Write SOMETHING at least once a week
   5. Have a garage sale I'm actually prepared for

You know what's REALLY exciting about this whole making-goal-lists thing? Next month, the list is going to include BEGINNING TO PACK TO MOVE. Gah, this is so exciting!!!

Oh, and as to the icon, I'm just obsessed with it. Pretty much my favourite. icon. EVAR.

EDIT: While on my walk today, I got to witness a rather interesting event. A tractor driving down main street, hauling a bunch of drunken morons sitting at picnic tables singing about how they're going to get arrested.

Sad thing is...that's actually pretty typical around here. Welcome to Le Center. =/

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02 May 2009 @ 12:44 am

GUYZ GUYZ GUYZ!

GUESS WHAT!

I'M MOVING IN LIKE THREE MONTHS GIVE OR TAKE!

But mostly I just wanted to use this icon. Thanks,

comically_so . <3

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30 April 2009 @ 01:32 am

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Night is a very dangerous time for me. It's the time when my heart and my mind wander off together to the edge of reality. My mind, try as it might, sees only darkness, but my heart sees another world, a different one at every visit. My heart can never convince my mind to see it, but slowly, slowly, my mind turns my heart's visions to black, and then they return to me, to set out the next night when my heart's hope has been revived.

When I was a little kid, I used to be able to so easily believe that there was a whole other world hiding just beyond my sight. A world where anything can happen. A world of dragons and fairies, of elves and goblins, of wizards and warlocks and magic. And I used to believe--I used to just know--that some day, I would accidentally stumble into that world and it would change my life forever.

Maybe I would be walking along the edge of the woods, staring up at the sky and looking for shapes in the clouds, and suddenly a dragon would fly overhead. He would land on the far side of the trees and, enchanted, I would run full-speed through the woods to find him. In the deepest part of the woods, though, an evil warlock would capture me, and keep me as his prisoner, convinced I carried secrets of those trying to defeat him.

It would take days--which of course would take only minutes of a child's imagination--but I would eventually break free. The warlock would notice me missing immediately and chase me, but I'd gain ground (somehow) and hide behind an upturned root of an ancient tree. The warlock would pass by without seeing me, but in my fear I would stumble trying to get up an a fairy would rush out to catch me. I'd relay my story, and she would gasp and sigh at all the right points, a perfect audience. Then she would lead me away to her friends, the other fairies and the elves and the good wizard, and they would show me where they live, and let me visit whenever I want, as long as I promise to keep their hiding place a secret. And I would help them in part of the endless quest against the evil warlock and his minions, the classic good vs. evil.

Thinking back on how realistic that once seemed, I kind of feel lost. But worse, I feel old. I feel like I've lost my whimsy, my passon, and my imagination. But at the same time, it makes me think that even if I had the world, it wouldn't be quite enough. And sometimes I feel like I've lived in entirely the wrong place and time; maybe even the wrong universe.

Or maybe I'm just crazy.

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